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Take a step back


If we take a step back just for a moment, and not listen, simply stare at the picture infront of us, if we forget the fine grain and look at the "big picture", we realize that there are things arround us which have their effect on us and that we rarely notice.

Looking at the sky has become one of my favourite passtimes lately. The movement and evolution of clouds is a lovely phenomena I hadn't admired for some time. The feeling of insignificance is so conforting when things are going badly.



Nicholas Rostov turned away and, as if searching for something, gazed into the distance, at the waters of the Danube, at the sky, and at the sun. How beautiful the sky looked; how blue, how calm, and how deep! How bright and glorious was the setting sun! With what soft glitter the waters of the distant Danube shone. And fairer still were the faraway blue mountains beyond the river, the nunnery, the mysterious gorges, and the pine forests veiled in the mist of their summits... There was peace and happiness... "I should wish for nothing else, nothing, if only I were there,"

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Above him there was now nothing but the sky--the lofty sky, not clear yet still immeasurably lofty, with gray clouds gliding slowly across it. "How quiet, peaceful, and solemn; not at all as I ran," thought Prince Andrew--"not as we ran, shouting and fighting, not at all as the gunner and the Frenchman with frightened and angry faces struggled for the mop: how differently do those clouds glide across that lofty infinite sky! How was it I did not see that lofty sky before? And how happy I am to have found it at last! Yes! All is vanity, all falsehood, except that infinite sky. There is nothing, nothing, but that.




Al levantar la bota de vino con al brazo sano, contempló el alto cielo azul, claro en ese día de comienzos de verano. Tenía ciencuenta y dos años y estaba seguro de que veía ese cielo por última vez.




Smile

What lies there inside a smile that moves the world so much?

Demons



In my solitude
You haunt me
With dreadful ease

Of days gone by.

In my solitude
You taunt me
With memories
That never die


-B.H.



We all have some sort of demons inside of us. A marvelous idea exploiting that apears in Gabriele Salvatores' Nirvana, one of the sci-fi films I've most enjoyed. The futuristic cyberspace in it pictured, strongly remembering Gibson's Sense/Net, has to offer a new sort of protection against intruders. The ultimate protection tools are called demons, virtual representations of the intruder's personal demons (which the system somehow acceses through the neural interface) which try to stop the intruder by engaging him in longed or feared conversations. In the movie, Jimi's (Lambert) ex-girlfriend and father appear, trying to solve old problems so as to stopping him from hacking into the computer.



We call the demons (daemons for the brits) because they are wretched, because they are powerfull, and because they are unpredictable. There's no scaping from them, they will always harm and you can't fully know when or where they will pop up.

My particular set of demons is a nice little pack of quite young lads. I'd never met them before until recently, but they, I think, are very fond of me, and therefore rearely leave my side. It is for the later that I call them a 'nice' pack, for their unpredictability has been reduced, I know, almost for certain, that in any given moment and time, they will be there. But of course, they are also bastards which have ruined my life for over a year now.




<-------------------------------------- But I've met and old aquantiance, a demon not of my insides but of everyone's. I'll try to get him to beat the shit out of the other ones, mine. There will be better days. The weather is superb in Mexico City, you should give a try. At least roll down the window of your car.






We must not ignore the stars above us.


Redeemers

"His armour, still shining,
Though it's torn by fights
The brave man, redeemer,
He brought us back to life"

To what extent does a desire of epic greatness live in each of us? It is not a new idea at all, for redeemers, persons of utter importance to humanity who will forever be remembered, have existed in human imagination for centuries.

I've had my fantasies on the issue, have you?

It is well know that many of those who sign up to a nacent organization, be it a political party, a NGO, a basketball team or a church, do so because in their fantasies they will rise to an importante figure in this organization. And it is indeed that generalized quest for individual outstanding that normaly brings not-well-managed organizations to a prompt end. I wonder, does this have anything to do with the image of the saviour that has been presented to us since the very begining. How many christians, for example, have ever fantasied on being Jesus reborn? and how does this affect their lives? and society in general?



I'd rather have this rainy afternoon than a thousand limo parties. I'd rather feel this in my chest, than a thousand drinks in my head.


Prefero esta tarde lluviosa a mil fiestas de limousina. Prefiero sentir esto en mi pecho que mil tragos en mi cabeza.




Alguien me habló todos los días de mi vida al oido, despacio, lentamente. Me dijo: ¡vive, vive, vive! Era la muerte. (JS)